It was a dark and stormy life... ravaged by dark circumstances, dismal outlooks, and after having uttered the words "Never Again!" I found myself star struck and smitten. Not what I planned at all. I had been burned by what I thought was love and I had enough hurt and woundedness to show that what I thought was love, was not what it was cracked up to be. It wasn't real. But this turned out to be something quite different.
I met my love at Church and she was all that and a bag of Crunchy Cheetos. She has class and a style all her own but most importantly, she loves God. She was different and I knew it and that's when the prayers started. Father, I need your permission to marry your daughter. I need your blessing on this whole thing before I move in any direction. Then silence in my heart.
All of Heaven was watching in anticipation, but not a word was uttered into my Spirit man by my Father. I waited in anticipation but nothing came. I was making myself content. I was volunteering in the house of God. I was working on getting healed emotionally. I didn't realize it but a lot of damage had been done by the enemy of my soul. I kept myself busy serving my Father. Not claiming perfection in anyway, I am far from it. I knew I needed healing. I just had no idea how much damage had been done.
I don't know how it happened but it did. I kept praying. I kept asking God, "Let me marry your daughter. I will treat her like she deserves to be treated. I will honor her. I will cherish her." Still silence from my Father and all of heaven. Unbeknownst to me. It was happening. It was at this point that my Father intervened and He turned my life around and my life has been different from the moment it happened. I knew in my knower that I would spend the rest of my life with this woman. Still no voice, no word, no direct answer from Heaven. Just an internal knowing that this was to be.
Quiet, soft-spoken and mild mannered; redeeming qualities that would make any man feel strength in places that he had never known before. Nothing unusual about my story or hers. I was volunteering in my Father's house and she volunteered too. She was attending regularly and I got to know her kids. Kristopher, Andrew & Kierstyn. They were well mannered and respectful of her. They had a connection that seemed magical and reminded me of my connection with my family. I would make small talk, here and there. Hoping for an opportunity to bridge the gap but nothing major happened.
Then it happened. We started talking. She was easy to talk to, she liked my stories. She liked my laugh. She gave me attention. I liked attention. That was nice. I had longed for attention but most importantly she listened. She listened. The more she listened, the more I talked and it seemed the more she listened the more that I had to say. It was nice. It was fun and as I look back today it was all in the plan of God.
Even though God was silent and not appearing to have heard my request. He was already working in her to prepare her to be the woman that I know her to be today. He was preparing her to be my wife. It was neat how it all came about. We began to become good friends. We shared music. We shared trauma's. We shared life. It is such a beautiful thing when a man finds a wife but even more beautiful when a man finds a friend in that wife.
On this Valentine's Day, I look back and am grateful for all that God did. He answered me without answering me. He worked behind the scenes and brought two hearts together to beat as one. The journey to becoming husband and wife was a beautiful journey. We lived, we loved, laughed. We grew into each other in so many ways. God healed me from some terrible wounds that had occurred in my life. We kept working in my Father's house. We kept being friends and then God graced us with a prophetic word through my Spiritual Father on July 11, 2014; 2: 44 pm
"AS FOR CHRISTOPHER AND KATHRYN THEY WERE MADE FOR EACH OTHER. NO MAN SHALL PUT ASUNDER WHAT I HAVE JOINED TOGETHER. THEY SHALL WED AND THEY SHALL BE BLISSFULLY HAPPY. They shall bring nothing but pure Holiness to My people. The have withstood the test of time and their love is pure and undefiled. I have called this union and woe to any man or woman that shall tamper with this union.
They will not be judged nor criticized; for all know each heart and all know they would never defile My temple (meeting place) nor their individual temples. They love me too much to place shame or disgrace upon Me.
Yes, this union is of me. I have already placed my blessing upon it. Christopher will be a loving husband and that love will draw the very best out of My daughter. Rest assured little one, this is of the Triune God and I am their Father."
I am so in love with Kathryn. She really is everything to me. I am a blessed man. My Father has been really good to me. Together Kathryn and I are raising our 3 children. God has been good. May you and yours have a Happy Valentines Day.